Sunday night already?! I really dislike Sunday nights...BAAAH!
Anyway - it's been one of those days ... or more like, it's been a good day with a weak moment.
Explanation:
It's the 7th day of yet another week "on track" - was invited out to brunch this morning (which I love..) and as usual I'd packed my own food. Yes, I sort my own food for all outings! Reason? Because I need to be in control of what I eat - if I want to reach my goal(s), I HAVE to have control...Should be very simple - although in theory only..
The weak moment didn't happen until I got home... I really wanted to just skip the diet and run to get some sweets, cake, chips or whatever I could get my hands on and then skip dinner and get some take-out.. I mean REALLY I wanted to! I know this might sound a little scary to some of you - cause you might feel like you don't know me - am I'm only trying to tell you what life is like living with obesity.
Luckily a dear friend of mine (my sponsor from time to time?!) was online and I just had to reach out. She immediately told me what I already knew and also needed to hear - my thoughts are the product of me feeling like I deserve getting a reward for being a "good girl" all day.The reward being any kind of food... I need to find another way to reward myself. However, this pattern is excruciating difficult to break. It's a note to oneself that I've come this far, because not too long ago I would give in to this unbearable craving and subsequently punish myself for giving in. Punishing myself with comfort-food. See the downward spiral?
Instead of craving in I made myself a blueberry smoothie and just relaxed on my couched. What did I eat for dinner? Salmon and cauliflower.. so no harm, no foul..
And I mean cool. ;o) FrSlagelse
ReplyDeleteWell done for not giving in!
ReplyDeleteFood is fraught with so many emotions (good and bad) for most of us and I think it's the value we give food that we need to look at if we're in a cycle that we need/want to get out of. But I bet you know all those things already. :)
Thank you, ladies..
ReplyDelete@Babaloo: You're absolutely right. And yes - I know ALL of these things by now! ;o)
I've got a pretty good idea of what my issues are and I know how to work around them - on most days. But like you said - food is fraught with emotions and sometimes we just don't want to deal with those emotions...